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fences

don't look up just let them think

there's no place else you'd rather be in now

you can't turn back

because this road is all you'll ever have


If you let me I could, I'd show you how to build your fences Want to know, where the navigations are? Read the lines below carefully. they are profile, entries, tagboard and links respectively. Don't get it? It's okay, I'm not worried.. You'll find it soon..	Sunday, December 20, 2009, 10:16 PM i was suppose to post up on AFA right.. im a little late.. so i'll just post a few pictures at the end of the post.. a few only.. so work was alright.. its been a month already.. wow right.. just two more months to go for probation, and i really need to get them to sign the blardy training form.. working as a nurse is no freaking joke, its tough as hell, everyday i keep thinking i cant stand this place, but at the end of the day, i cant help loving my job more and more.. the bias at work is starting to show, and i hate it.. why cant u just treat everyone the same way.. oh and i cried at work already, hehehe.. for being scolded on something that isnt even my fault, such a bitch sometimes.. sometimes u get the feeling everyone is trying to test u, using the wrong way.. and sleeping condition isnt getting better, i am not helping myself at all, just making my condition worse.. every night, i will be out till 3-4am, going home to sleep for 2-3hours before going to work for another 12hours.. and the cycle repeats itself.. i feel weird.. its like i still take life so simply yet im thinking so hard about what i want for my life.. happy life, went to powerhouse with kak and liping.. met alot of new friends.. got closer and even more closer to one.. feeling wary and yet wondering.. the stronghold even though still standing powerfully has started cracking slightly for the past year, the yearning, will this crumble it down completely? the boys we meet every night.. we made a label for ourselves.. 'the children deprived of love'.. we just cuddle with each other, making ourselves comfortable.. its like we're a bunch of overprotective siblings.. the group im fond of.. a whole load of clubbing this two weeks.. went to powerhouse again.. we took it one step further.. never had the feeling of going clubbing with a partner, it was different, one minute u want him, another minute u just want to dance alone and the next, u want him again.. of course, u have to squeeze in dancing with other guys.. am getting wasted this wednesday.. okay.. AFA pictures! Tuesday, November 24, 2009, 12:14 AM First day at ARVC.. and i thought it was AVRC, hehe, my bad.. i was also wrong about the timing, i thought it was a 10hour shift, but no, it actually was a 12hour shift, 4working days, 3 days off.. pay sucks at the moment.. after cpf, you all understand uh.. so first week, im training as receptionist.. there's another new girl coming in, and we'll be starting nurse training together.. so recep............. just one word for it.. Hectic.. recep for today was Amanda.. i just sat down for 5min, and we didnt even manage to get started on the introductions or the basics for the job like the lights, aircon or whatever cause the first client already came in.. then the phone started ringing, non-stop.. we have up to 5 or 6 lines, and we can have 4 lines on hold at one time, and me there, being new and all, just dumbstruck.. i cant even answer phonecalls, what am i going to say? sure 'Good morning, ARVC' and thats it.. amanda was going on and on to clients, checking appointments, making appointments, using the intercom, calling colleagues to answer, 'Julian, David is on line 1'.. i was mesmerized... in a bad way.. and then we have the customers, finding their cards, jotting it down, placing them for the vets, deal with priscriptions, deal with that crap of a label printer that decides to screw up every 10mins.. do payments and on the spot bookings for follow up.. Dr Ly is too popular, everyone wants appointments for tomorrow or earliest possible when the next open slots are available only next week.. things ran behind schedule today.. alot of waiting.. oh and walk in clients still have to call, and they have to wait, for a long long time.. there's alot of typing involve, everytime its type type type on the keyboard, nobody really writes anymore.. and vets are really expensive.. consultants starts from 36, but nobody really pays under 100.. u have your medicines, suppliments, sometimes shampoo and foods, and mostly injections.. i see transactions ranging from $500 to $1500 today.. it was seriously crazy.. but i know, i'll get the hang of it, i mean when you're busy and get tired by the end of the day.. you know your day was worth it.. went to AFA09!! but wont post on it, till i get pictures.. cause i want to upload them.. kay sleep time people.. When soft hair blows across your face.. Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 9:58 AM okay.. new post of the month.. with another post for next month.. okay joking.. too busy lately, ever since i started at CDM.. kay once again, lets branch this out.. started part time at Cafe Del Mar, located at siloso beach, 2weeks ago.. kay, the place is fine whatsoever, serve food, wine, liqour... mingle with the rest of the staff.. my first day went well.. i had jack telling me all the staff didnt like me.. wow. big shot.. i mean in cartel it was so different, the staff just fawns over you, ya know.. spinelli too, okay changi outlet was small, so everyone is just all over you.. but wow, i know that i give off a very haughty first impression but to the extend where all the staff didnt like me? wth.. all cause.. i look so proud, and im anti social.. blardy hell, first day of course i kept my mouth shut.. but everyone got better.. after a few days, im all open and talkative.. and i already have six eyecandies in that place.. 1st, our most wonderful, the youngest looking manager i ever had, 'Adrian'.. he looks a little like GDragon, more so when he smile.. his knowledge on alcohol is soooo... omg.. after closing, we all gather, have a little debrief, and its the question session where we all have to ask him 1 question on alcohol.. and he can answer anything, history of ice wine, tequila shot, bloody mary, anything.. have i mention he looks young and looks a lil like GD? kay i have less to talk about the rest.. hahaha.. adrian kills the chart and most of my attention span.. 'Xander' our supervisor, damn hot, not to mention he'll tease u like no tomorrow.. 'Weili' the junior bartender, Jean knows him right , so called.. hahaha.. they say he's mixed.. i dont see it, totally chinese to me.. didnt speak much cause he's mostly morning and im mostly night.. 'Jackie' another bartender, this crazy guy knows nothing except making drinks, and teasing the hell out of you.. 'Stanley' floor crew, this one, alah idiotic in a really good way, but he's really cute cause well, he's 2years younger.. he's a mat wannabe chinese, u get my drift.. lastly 'Mark' he's the tall one with the nice body, and totally charismatic face, when he smiles, u'll melt faster than ice cream under the scorching sun, he quite playful as well for a 19yr old.. im a noona to two of my eyecandies, its so sad.. on a good note.. i got an interview at AVRC = Animal Veterinary Recovery Center.. long eh.. AVRC vet clinic.. 1 whole day assestment, watching and helping the vets hold the animal, while they inject, extract blood, clean the table, so on and so forth.. i even did x-ray for a cat, a vet clinic is totally hectic.. after the assestment, was the interview, it went well, was joking with the person.. and while waiting for about 1week.. they called.. i got the job! as vet nurse.. i'll have to go for training and what not, for 3 month, including my probation.. there's alot of benefits that i like, especially about going for further studies, they will sponsor the payment for courses, or overseas courses, but of course with time bond.. im a little disappointed that the zoo didnt call me, but i feel this job, will give me more experiences.. now im a little sad about leaving CDM, cause i feel i havent mingle with adrian enough.. its nice to know, he already remembers u and your name.. but he'll forget in the span of one month after i quit, now that is sad.. as a manager u watch people come and go.. lol.. okay long post, thank for putting up with me.. Vet Nurse hell yeah!! Somebody get me Canadian Ice Wine... Friday, October 30, 2009, 5:26 AM been so long right.. just decided, its time to update.. zoo hasnt called me yet.. how long can it take to process a single procedure of hiring? can someone tell me? i can go nearly crazy, endless days of thinking and nearly crying cause the one thing i want so bad.. (even more than changmin, but then lets put changmin aside..) i have heard though, government jobs takes months.. what about the zoo then? its been so long, and my days have been bored... i still remember the feeling, of waking up for 2 days, and the excitement rushing through, and the next thing u know, u whooshing off to work.. and when i woke up after that two days, knowing i was to be at home, extreme boredom kicked in, and i was left without a thing to do.. i feel pathetic.. otherwise.. miss maisarah has finally picked her life back up, slowly.. and we were invited to go to sentosa with her and her crazily cute, handsome and rich angmo boyfriend.. for the first time we tasted how it feels to have someone to just burn his money endlessly on you.. or us for that day.. outdoor bar on siloso beach, right next to a pool.. none of us entered the salt water that day.. it was chlorine water instead, cause we felt like it, and it was too hot for the sea.. had drinks, while basking in the pool like some pampered rich bitches in our bikinis watching all the other angmos do the same thing.. had ice cream too, in the pool.. and more drinks.. and then he wanted to go on the luge.. so we did, skyride, and luge after that.. strictly no racing, but we raced anyway, with me and dian wearing dresses for god's sake.. there was no need to brake, unless u're one of the faint hearted.. ^-^ made friends.. ended up applying as part time at the very same bar, and now i'll be working at siloso beach people.. starting next week, need to do something with my time.. still thinking about the zoo thing.. sigh.. now to go into rehab to reduce my online shopping.. i just... cant get enough of it... someone stop me.. or else give me more money.. im like stuck stuck stuck.. there's a freaking MAC 24 brush set just waiting for me to pick up!!!!!!!!!! and that sweet girl just had to order it.. and she was asking me if i wanted it, since i inquired on it.. screams!!! i want that set... badly.. oh god sobs... There's far too much to take in here.. More to find than can ever be found... Thursday, October 08, 2009, 8:06 PM okay, so something great happened this past week... some probably knows already, but still.. the zoo called me for a 2 day job attachment.. so i went on a painstaking 1 and half hour trip to the other end of the country to mandai zoo.. was intro-ed to the staff, except for 2 who were on leave.. we have 3 vets, Serena, Anwar and Abraham.. melayu eh u think.. not really.. malaysians.. Serena too i think.. Elina is indo chinese.. She's the current vet tech.. Mulyadi and Anil, indo as well, worked in the zoo for 12years already.. he's the hospital ward keeper.. oh, i forgot.. the only singaporean in the dept, fadillah, the admin of the zoo hospital.. so first day.. did a bunch of blood test, keeping of the serum.. hematology testing, criptology, biochem tests.. there was no fecal test, since there was no fecal samples that day.. so i got to watch 3 post motem on an otter, a slow loris and mouse deer.. they're all dead if you must know.. i didnt take any pictures, since im so new and all, and it might be disrespectful.. so we cut it open, and checked the organs.. human autopsy might look clean to you, but know that, dead bodies, are literally cut open, all the organs are taken out.. they cut up your kidney, your heart, check your lungs, liver and all that.. the otter died of spleenic tumor, when we cut up the waist area, the inside was flooded with blood, vessels had ruptured.. the slow loris had severe jaundice, it died of something else though.. the mouse deer died of hepititis B.. watched a sterilisation surgery on a small monkey, i forgot the name.. its ovary was weird looking, it was cute actually.. it had two previous miscarriage and is very thin, so they didnt want her to try anymore.. 2nd day was fun.. met dr. anwar who really took scaring newbies in a new way.. i was cutting up veggies to prepare the food, and he saw me, and he went 'i give you 5 secs to tell me who the hell you are..' and i was stuttering as he was counting till 2, before i managed to spit out the details needed.. but then.. he is extremely cute, young at only 28, has slightly long and wavy hair.. really my type, but we didnt get along in the morning, cause the next time i saw him, we really glared at each other as i walked past him.. he was better in the afternoon, since i was alone in the lab and he was dropping off blood samples, he was asking where i live and all.. but finally, real lab work, we had fecal samples (shit).. yes the vet tech deal with crap everyday.. so i got to do some, giraffes mostly.. lol.. the dept had a meeting in the evening, Mul was rushing to clean up a small plython, it was covered in glue.. and i helped.. i really liked it, have been wanting to touch a snake since forever.. so there it was coiling itself on my hand, as i cleaned it body, Mul held the head, then we bathed it in warm water and soap.. ^-^ i was the first to go on this attachment apparently.. and Mul told me they didnt know, if Serena will be taking in another.. hopefully i get it, because i shamelessly whispered to Mul before he went to the meeting to give me a good word.. Anwar was saying its a shame because he didnt get a chance to bully me yet, but i really like the dept, they are so comfortable with each other, its like the SGS dept i was in.. was so sad, when i was told i could go.. and tearing up when i told Serena i hope i could come back, keeping a straight face and all.. pics... the name tag is nice right.. so proud when they gave it to me, and i had to give it back.. well cause if you have it, u have free entry to the zoo, night safari and jurong bird park.. here's the little one... and spot the cat.. although i think its pretty obvious.. Subete Wa Changing.. Saturday, September 26, 2009, 7:51 AM okay, here i am.. i have been ignoring my blog for weeks.. and here's why.. my life is on the down roll.. whatever i do bores me.. and i sit at home, sleeping all day and going out to be an unwanted person on the streets.. okay im being harsh on myself.. go and hang out is more appropriate.. let me break down what has been happening... -a certain bff came back after 1year few months, after breaking up with boyfriend.. -izza made friends with two boys, named aziz aka lipas and heiry.. -hang out with those two while heiry gets interested in me.. -some shit happened between the two boys all this time.. -aziz is engaged, izza in shit.. and so is heiry, engaged i mean, and boy, i was lucky i wasnt into him.. -got an interview at the zoo for veterinary technician.. -izza and aishah found a little kitten, which we named kiki.. -my sleep diminished with each day caring for it.. -a kind soul by the name of shafiq took ownership and kiki became jonny.. -aziz came and talked to us, on how he lost, his friend, gf, and fiance in one night.. -khai came back into our life, me and misha, with dreadful consequences.. -our once okay 5-6 years of friendship has now turned awkward, with a love triangle.. -only i dont think he's aware of my side.. i think.. -izza found out that aziz is still with his fiance.. -my bff caused alot of contrevosy while knowing alot of other people.. -hanging out with her more while izza got a job.. -misha fought with khai, while khai is now playing hide and seek with the both of us.. -misha is getting closer to zaki, which is nice for a change, cause zaki is the sweetest thing.. -izza met aziz again (rolls eyes) -aziz's fiance called me early this morning.. -izza is now missing.. -each day, i could only think about the dream job at the zoo, which i hope i will get.. -with each stress building up, hani has became a total smoker.. -i can smoke 5 sticks in a day now, when i use to only smoke 1.. -i hope i dont turn into an official smoker.. -realized that every night, im a slacker who hangs out.. -i could die from depression.. this hasnt been a good two months... on the plus side.. had a good time with huda and izza during raya eve, we went to the geylang bazaar.. went to eat those japanese fruit tart with rash rash.. im addicted to online shopping.. i have now ordered from about 5 sprees already, two of those orders have reached me.. 3 more to go while i'll probably keep ordering.. wanted to post pictures.. but i guess, naaah.. i'll try to keep posting more of my angsty life until it gets abit better, im still thinking of some other jobs as a backup.. but one would like to keep hoping.. oh by the way.. visit my fishes and feed them a little, they're eternally hungry.. click on the blue link, and wait for a while.. they're really cute, and i cant help playing with them for a long time.. But I'm Trying To Fly... Thursday, July 30, 2009, 12:54 PM went to have a little dessert with Rash Rash at Bakerzin.. got a little shock at the menu.. didnt know they serve foods too, since i thought Bakerzin only serve desserts.. hehe.. so we tried two items, for two people.. lol.. i had Vanilla Creme Brulee.. it taste good, the caramelized sugar is something i can have everyday.. the custard seriously taste like whipped cream.. warm whipped cream.. i miss having cupfuls of whipped cream.. Hudz? haha.. Rash has the... Javari Cake.. i think we got the name wrong somewhere but it's close.. cause i remembered the Java part.. and the ri.. this is one superb choc cake, the crust base is what i love, nutty! home, a few days ago i watched the T concert commentary, which toho mentioned they had a live band playing, which was yeah.. but i didnt notice the drum beats during Rising Sun.. and so, forgetting that my concert dvd is with Jannah.. but thank god, there's the Secret Code album.. and so after i on the tv, bragxie got interested... she was more interested in them! and i happened to snap when Jae is on screen.. and here she is.. its not clear.. but she's totally rubbing on whatever's in there.. and the thing in there is rambutans.. she's getting intoxicated by rambutans... she's really rubbing on it.. Hani is bored, and she needs a job.. or needs to go back to school.. Noblesse Oblige. 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